And everything can be a sign if you let it. If you want it to be.
A sign to let things go. A sign to hold on to things. A sign to forgive, to show kindness, to love.
To let go of the anger and frustration we let bubble up to easily. To hold onto those most important to us, to realise who they are too.
“Every year my life feels a little more frenzied. From the minute my alarm clock rings, I’m off to the gym, the office, the store; then home to feed the cat, cook dinner, read the newspaper, pay bills, write in my journal, watch the news, brush my teeth, and fall into bed. I can no longer sit still without feeling guilty. But at the laundromat, I can sit still. I’m not doing nothing. I’m doing my laundry.”
This last week has felt like there’s simply been a tension running through me that I am unable to relax. I know precisely it’s causes, it’s all the things I’ve got running through my head. How I can’t seem to let them go for long. I can. I did yesterday but I can feel it building again. It sometimes feels like a natural state. As we try to balance our lives out.
All I know, is these things have given me plenty to think about.
What’s important? What isn’t?
I mean really.
Have been taking some time to try and put some words down this week. I guess it’s like old times. Some of them I’m happy with, others not so much. Some I’ve worked on and others are the result of turning my 5 minute sand timer over.
colours are ours alone,
our shades, simply pulsing neurons.
and our words are not our feelings
our feelings are not our words.
the wave has passed
leaving only uneven waters
a boat cast adrift
by her absence
we feel the
hole she has left
we feel our own
we said we wouldn’t,
but we lose ourselves once more
And we forget
how we said we wouldn’t.
1 sweet potato
a mashing thing
1. peel, chop, boil potato in salted water
2. cook garlic and onion over a low heat
3. blend garlic and onion
4. mash potato roughly with some butter
5. add garlic and onion and salt to taste good
6. add coriander
Do you have patience to wait till your mud settles and the water is clear? Can you remain unmoving till the right action arises by itself?
Sometimes, during the best thing for me to do is to be still.
a moment where the thing that changes is your perspective
yet, that moment changes the world
It’s amazing how easily fear binds, isn’t it?
And how easily we let it.
Let it subdue us to shells of what we know we can be.
But. Also. How easily we can free ourselves.
Just by starting.
“Let go of everything. Not only of the things that you couldn’t do, but also of the things that you could. Let go, and make room for new and better things to come. Namaste.”
“We are lonely but fearful of intimacy. Digital connections offer the illusion of companionship without the demands of friendship. We expect more from our technology but less from each other.”
- Sherry Turkle
AIR AND LIGHT AND TIME AND SPACE
”– you know, I’ve either had a family, a job,
something has always been in the
I’ve sold my house, I’ve found this
place, a large studio, you should see the space and
for the first time in my life I’m going to have
a place and the time to
no baby, if you’re going to create
you’re going to create whether you work
16 hours a day in a coal mine
you’re going to create in a small room with 3 children
while you’re on
you’re going to create with part of your mind and your body blown
you’re going to create blind
you’re going to create with a cat crawling up your
the whole city trembles in earthquake, bombardment,
flood and fire.
baby, air and light and time and space
have nothing to do with it
and don’t create anything
except maybe a longer life to find
I think it’s a good thing that I don’t feel excited about the fact that I fly, again, to Mauritius on Saturday.
I want to say that I’ve been too busy but that’s not entirely true.
The thought that Joey is getting married and that I’ll get to meet Mika feel unreal, a 1000miles away even. I think, that I like it, a little. I want to be here, right here, right now. My world doesn’t begin and end with my holiday in Mauritius. Of course, it’ll be all my family, in one place and that right there will be nothing short of incredible but it’s not everything. Is it? It would be wrong to think it is, because then what does everything else become then?
Right now, the most important thing is my coffee and this song. The rest will come.