Reasons
It started with this Ask.Metafilter
question – http://ask.metafilter.com/161439/Whats-the-difference-between-depressed-and-dissatisfied that I caught whilst browsing one day.
And it just got me thinking, just from a personal point of view about how I feel and how I see things generally. We’ve all been there, there are times when we feel low or down or ‘a bit shit’ and sometimes it lasts a minute and sometimes it lasts a while. It just felt like something clicked when I read it, it seemed just to ‘make sense’ to me.
Only recently I was talking to someone how it feels like there’s a difference between being happy and doing things that make you feel good (I don’t want to say happy here). For example, I’m a different person when I’m exercising regularly. I certainly get the rush of endorphins after but I tend to feel more grounded when I’m exercising. I find that I can roll with punches better when I am, I worry less and generally feel more positive. Recently I had a couple of weeks where I wasn’t exercising regularly and now that I sit and think about it, the difference is quite marked. Yet, I feel like that it doesn’t feel like enough. There’s this permanent, constant shadow that hangs at the back of my mind that I just can’t shake.
August 9, 2010