One more person sitting quietly
So, I’ve been meditating for over a month now and since then everyday is a little different to before. Some changes have been small and subtle, a single moment here and there where I might have done something differently 2 months ago. Some changes have been bigger, sharper and left me reeling – that I might have begun to act in the way I am now a month ago, well the thought is laughable. I want to scream about it, except I don’t I just want to stop, take a breath and just happily accept that this is all possible. That I’ve found something to ease that constant, biting, shadow of anxiety I’ve always felt.
The problem is trying to sell it. To say to someone, sitting quietly focusing on your breathing for a short period every day has the potential to change things for the better just sounds; it just sounds silly. So I was pleased, a bit excited but also nervous (what if it did nothing!) when Ally took up my suggestion/challenge to meditate for 10minutes a day for a whole week. 10 minutes! 10 WHOLE minutes, every single day, for a WHOLE WEEK! So she did and this is what she found…
So a week ago today I felt pretty shit (see post a week ago for details), and in attempts to help pull myself out of said shitness, I agreed to trying meditating for ten minutes a day for seven days to see if it helped. I just finished my seventh day and I can say with conviction that this won’t be a seven day thing.
I’ve felt so much more grounded this week, I feel more in my own skin if that makes sense. I just feel more able to handle things; and while it feels stupid to attribute it to spending ten minutes sat down and breathing, well, that’s the truth.
Awesome.
May 29, 2011