Quick! The kids are napping, you need to relax. Always find it hard. What should I do with myself. I crave this time but don’t know what to do with it!

007: 5 minute free write – Nappies

Sit down. Close your eyes. Rotate your neck slowly in circles while counting out-loud to 5. Once you hit 5, stop rotating your neck and open your eyes. Take note of the first thing you see. Set a timer for 5 minutes. Do a freewrite about the thing you saw until the timer runs out.

Nappies, we have boxes of them because Lyra sells them, they sit in a pile in the spare room that’s not really a spare room. More storage, office. I have my computer in her and some sometimes come in here to get away from the noise.

The advantage is that since both kids are still wearing them, we never run out. They wear both sizes too, which I suppose is something to be grateful for.

I remember when we took Elise somewhere and I realised that you could tear the sides to take them off. I’d been pulling them down before, which was often precarious and in hindsight, fairly ridiculous. Live and learn.

I’ll be happy when we’re rid of them and they’ll be able to go to toilet on their own. The eldest is out of them, mostly, but going out is still… It still makes me nervous. “Do you need the toilet? Are you sure? Do you want to try?”

It’ll be easier when they’re bigger, that’s not trus is it?

Staying or going

Going away with my wife’s friends for a couple of days has been enlightening in terms of the decision for what I want to do with my job contract, and by extension, whether I want to stay in Chongqing longer. I think I’ve made my peace with staying a little longer.

It was good to start trying to write down some of my thoughts down about. Though, it ended up as more prose. That is a work in progress.

油茶(you cha) is basically porridge with spices and some crunchy rice noodles on top. It’s delicious.

I’d love for this view to be British countryside but I’ll take the convenience of the fast trains in China, I think.

You get used to the English when you live in China but this from the hot springs we went to today tickled me. Forbidden tips!

Happy Anniversary.

Today is my 5 year wedding anniversary. The kids woke at 6, one was coughing and we went to the Doctors to get them checked (it was all fine), then they came home and had a fight, then McDonalds forgot the toy (tears), so we went to the shop and then I had to carry 14kg up 5 flights of stairs as the lift was out.

When you have kids your marriage completely changes, it just gets harder. Suddenly, your relationship often has to take a back seat. For it all, I wouldn’t want to be doing this with anyone else. x